nuts?

well life is nuts right now (have you ever read and it's ever not?). i'm trying to give myself self-examination and see what needs to change and how i can be more effective in the kingdom and the world around me. thats not easy. it hurts a little. and is the current cause of a bit of insecurity. and trying to plan my future on top of that? while not really knowing what Gods will is for the next chapter of my life? its tough. but like i said, God is crazy, extreme, unconventional, radical, etc. so i have to trust Him. if that makes me crazy, extreme, unconventional, radical, etc. then so be it. thats what he calls us to be. luke 11 was kicking my butt this morning. Jesus was literally head-spinning.
bah! its nuts. there you go. theres my internal vomit for you

is this what growing up feels like? realizing that you never have and never will know more than your father?

the moon and the mounains

so right now the moon is supposed to be as close to earth as it has been in hundreds of years. true or not, the moon is spectacular tonight. last week here at hume, we got 60 inches of snow. 60. inches. thats five feet for those lacking in mathematical skills, or for those who landed on the left side of their head one too many times snowboarding. so because of the winter precipitation, the mountains were covered in snow. however as the days have been beautiful and sunny, the snow has melted a little bit, but the sun saw fit to leave just enough to make the majestic mountains glow in the fluorescence of the moon light. words really can't capture in imagery the beauty of the sierra nevada range this time of year.

So the journey of life is such that you have choices to make. Paths to choose, concepts to reject or embrace. The thing I'm beginning to realize is this: the christian journey is a choice. Faith in Christ and everything He taught is a daily choice. The problem with me and my cavernous brain is that I like to question things. I like the challenge of coming to conclusions based on a horde of inputs. But:
..faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see...
What do I hope in? Too often my hope defaults to a future with staples that are material and temporary. I need to place my hope in things concrete and lasting. Things like hope in a world that's wrecked with hope of the Giver of hope. Because after all
...faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see...