Springville Camp '08 Day 1

wow. 

the sight of hundreds of kids indignantly pursuing God with ALL their energy, focus, and strength is one that is stirring enough to move someone to tears. 

this week is going to be fun. 

i need it to be fun. 

because i need a vacation. 

and i NEED Him. 

more than a vacation. 

-be my source of life-

in all that goes on this week, i pray that its real. i PRAY GOD that its not an emotional trip or a temporary high. i seriously believe that these kids are hungry for the REAL thing. and i pray they find it. 

well...

they WILL find it. 

if they want to. 

blob. 

can't frickin wait. 

MY AMP BLEW UP!!

kinda. the tubes are shot. 

it sounds like doo doo. 

but i'll take care of it tomorrow.

until then...

stuck

i wonder why it is that about half way through the summer my substantial imaginative capability declines at a rapid pace. or should i say the desire to be substantially imaginatively productive declines...

either one sucks.

im stuck. 

im mad. 

im tired.

ulgh.

JESUS i need you now.

relentless

yea i want to be pretentious.
i want to be relentless
when it comes to loving You.

at night at times it seems
i can't sleep when your in my head

please don't ever ever leave
don't think you never please

doctors visits

doctors visits force the reality of the mortality of immediate progenitors upon unsuspecting victims.

such as myself.

death indeed comes to us all but it really hits home when you begin to feel its sting.

i do not fear death. i doubt my parents or grandparents fear death. the thing i fear is the pain that will come with the death of those i love.

yes, we must cherish our time together on earth. but more than that, we must realize that parents have the biggest kingdom influence on children. and a majority of parents are too wrapped up with being their child's "best friend" to realize that their influence reaches beyond the mundane, and commonly temporary, friendship. and theres so much more.

really, we need fathers and mothers. not moms and dads.

i need a father and mother.