nuts?

well life is nuts right now (have you ever read and it's ever not?). i'm trying to give myself self-examination and see what needs to change and how i can be more effective in the kingdom and the world around me. thats not easy. it hurts a little. and is the current cause of a bit of insecurity. and trying to plan my future on top of that? while not really knowing what Gods will is for the next chapter of my life? its tough. but like i said, God is crazy, extreme, unconventional, radical, etc. so i have to trust Him. if that makes me crazy, extreme, unconventional, radical, etc. then so be it. thats what he calls us to be. luke 11 was kicking my butt this morning. Jesus was literally head-spinning.
bah! its nuts. there you go. theres my internal vomit for you